Free Verse

I realize I was wrong
so why do I still feel this way?
Why do I still have this pit of despair,
right where my heart should be?
I know it wasn't all my fault,
but still I feel this way.
You have your share of blame,
I have mine.
But I take it all on myself,
that in your moment of joy,
I was what brought you down.
I cant forgive myself for letting you down.
You called me to join you in your merriment.
I did nothing but bring you down.
You know I cant stand to have you brag about yourself,
but I should have been there for you.
Do you feel the way I do right now?
As I write this the pit fades,
Am I really the one to blame?